Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I SUPER DUPER LOVE THIS SONG..
YEAH..
MEANINGFUL TO ME..


i never needed you to be strong
i never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
i never needed pain, i never needed strain
my love for you is strong enough you should have known
i never needed you for judgment
i never needed you to question what i spend
i never ask for help
i take care of myself
i don’t why you think you got a hold on me
and it’s a little late for conversations
there isn’t anything for you to say
and my eyes hurt, hands shiver
so look at me and listen to me because…
i don’t want to stay another minute
i don’t want you to say a single word
hush hush
hush hush
there is no other way,
i get the final say
because…
i don’t want to, do this any longer
i don’t want you,
theres nothing left to say
hush hush
hush hush
i’ve already spoken,
our love is broken
baby hush hush
i never needed your corrections
on everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words i never needed hurts
i never needed you to be there everyday
i’m sorry for the way i let go
from everything i wanted when you came along
but i am never beaten, broken not defeated
i know next to you is not where i belong
and it’s a little late for explanations
there isn’t anything that you can do
and my eyes hurt, hands shiver
so you will listen when i say baby…
i don’t want to stay another minute
i don’t want you to say a single word
hush hush
hush hush
there is no other way, i get the final say
because…
i don’t want to do this any longer
i don’t want you there’s nothing left to say
hush hush
hush hush
i’ve already spoken, our love is broken
baby hush hush
no more words
no more lies
no more crying
no more pain
no more hurt
no more trying
i don’t want to stay another minute
i don’t want you to say a single word
hush hush
hush hush
there is no other way, i get the final say
because…
i don’t want to, do this any longer
i don’t want you, theres nothing left to say
hush hush
hush hush
i’ve already spoken,
our love is broken
baby hush hush

TIOMAN TRIP

went tioman with family and also dad's friends on raya..
so on wednesday dad and mom purposely from ipoh drive to kl and fetch me back ipoh..
because we're going tioman by bus on thursday night at 10pm..
tioman is somewhere pahang right??
yeahhh..
i saw there road block there wrote one..
then reach there the next day at 7something in the morning..
then went tioman island by ferry..
the ppl in charge said our ferry is at 9.30am, but you know what time only we sit??
11something..
stand for more than two hours waiting for the ferry..
damn!
and when reach there..
everyone is disappointed..
because what??
there's no hotel available..
all is like motel or..
i dont know how to say..
outside it looks nice but inside is like shit!
lots of ants inside the room..
spoiled here and there..
the best is got air con only..
got ants is okay..
but it is big red ants please..
WTF??
when reached there and have our lunch..
my sis cried because she really very disappointed for the place..
nothing much to say..
bad trip that i ever had..
when back from tioman same too..
wait for the ferry wait until my neck long also haven come..
and there is so hot somemore..
when at tioman..
i just wish to back my hostel..
i dont know how to bath there..
the water is cold like hell there..
luckily still can tahan and didnt get fever..
but i'm still sick when i went there..
nothing to play there..
and the ppl in charge is not good at all..
dont know how to manage the time for us..
is like they play theirs and we play ours..
WTH is this right??
they should take care of us right??
but they didnt..
okay fine..
ITS OVER..
dont wish to think back about this trip..
the only thing i saw in tioman that is nice is the sea water is clear enough..
thats all..

this picture was took when we're at middle of the sea..
my mom and winnie..

before out to play..

bats

group photo

me, wei gor gor and winnie yip..

thought want to capture the picture of jumping high..
but we FAILED..
and took this ugly pic..
the pose is like preparing to jump..

bro and sis

this is what i said just now..
outside is like damn pretty nice..
but inside is just like shit..
bad memory..

最后一次

i love this song badly..
although this song is quite some time ago..
but i still love it very much..
and it is so meaningful..
and got the story inside..
very touched too..
below are the lyrics of the song..

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在 你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你 曾经答应我你会好好活下去

先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死 由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我 使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别 就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。


down there are the story of this song..
take a look..
its touched..
i cried when i read this..

有一对感情非常好的小情侣
双方家长都非常满意对方
准备大学毕业就结婚正当高三开学不久
学校体检
检 查出那个女孩的血蛋白有异常
之后去医院检查
查出她患了一种非常罕见的隐形皮肤遗传病
这种病越严重皮肤就越嫰
就像 宝宝皮肤一样
最后会因为皮肤太嫰
承受不了肌肉和血管的内压而撑裂
虽然不能医治
但那个男孩和双方家长
都要 求那个女孩住院
就算不能医治也要尽量活长一点
当医生确定女孩还有不到一年的生命的时候
那个女孩好像抛开所有的恐惧似的
不 再把自己关在病房里不见人
而是天天都和那个男孩和家人出去散散步看看日出日落
也就在那时她开始写日记
努力的记录已成过去的日子与 所剩无几的时间
当那个女孩再写到某一次和那个男出去的时候
女孩才发觉
笔下的文字
绝大多都是她和那个男孩一起经历 的事
那个男孩已经成为自己不可缺少的一部分
于是那个女孩决定留下一份礼物给那个男孩
荆莿鸟的绝唱
若 干星期过去
曲作好词填好
就找朋友帮忙语录歌
已经病入膏盲的女孩
喉咙的皮肤用大力一点就会出血
但都坚持要自己唱
当 U盘出来之后
那个女孩竟然要求安乐死
还说一开始就打算这么做
而且和那个男孩说要陪着她到她睡着
还说要在临睡前对那个男孩 说一句话
手术关灯熄灭之后
那个男孩出来
那个女孩的妈妈把U盘给了那个男孩
那个男孩听完之后
和他妈妈说
女 孩最后对他说的是：
“在也不能看日出了
不过我不怕
因为是你陪着我睡着......
我爱你”
因为 那个女孩最喜欢就是看日出了
所以那个男孩决定要走遍可以到的地方
将每一个地方的日出都送给那个女孩
2008年年头
那 个男孩在一次上山的照日出的时候
失足堕山
被人发现的时候尸体已经腐烂不堪
然而相片里面
朝阳的霞红依然充满温馨

end with love..
<3

SEM BREAK + BIRTHDAY + ASTRO BATTLEGROUND + NEW SEM

SEM BREAK

first of all..
this would be my super duper long post that i ever had..
i seriously long time never update my blog already..
so now i'll blog about what i did when my sem break and so on until i back kl and bla bla bla..
and i know i'm a bit talkative..
so the post will be more long..
and i'm guessing can i use left then one hour to finish blog this post??
maybe can maybe cant??yeahhh..
her i start my story dyyy..
listen carefully..
hahahaha..
omg..
damn childish wey i write like this..

hmmmmm..
sem break..
after my last day of final then dad fetch me back ipoh..
because on that day he got meeting in kl..
so come fetch me back ipoh also..
and my dear babe, sushi following my car going back..
so i'm haivng my sem break at my hometown!!
yeahhhh..

the photos below is sushi, vicky, zi yang and jun wen help me to celebrate my birthday at neway, leisure mall..
i think i got post it at my previous post..
but just dont have the photos only..
now here are the photos that we took on that day..
but the two guys never take the photo with us..
got chance i'll post their photos up here in my blog..
i think i will say again about the day they celebrate my birthday..
at first i just thought really going neway for sing k only..
never think much..
cause i know everyone wanted to sing k very much and same to me..
and finally we found the chance and everyone are free on the day..
then when i'm singing till half way, suddenly that zi yang go eject my song..
then the happy birthday song appear..
and the neway ppl are taking the cake come inside to our room..
omg!!!
i was so so so surprise and feel touched..
i cried wey..luckily that day i didnt make up..
cause i dont use waterproof make ups..
if i make up and i'm sure my face will become like ghost only..
once again, THANK YOU!!
VICKY, SUSHI, ZI YANG AND JUN WEN!!
i will appreciate it very much and always remember it in my heart..
gonna love you guys so so so much..
and yeahhh..nearly forget to tell you guys..
i got a new parents, a sister and also a driver..

MOTHER : VICKY LOH YOKE SIN
FATHER : KELVIN GWEE ZI YANG
SISTER : SUSHI MOO
DRIVER : JUN WEN

my happy family!!!
and i miss you guys so so so much..
this song is for us..

i love you, you love me, we are happy family,
with a great big heart and a kiss from me to you..
want you say you love me too..
muacks..

kiss me wor..
bok ngo geh mong..
i just give my bf and husband kiss jek lor okayyy..
but you both..
also can gehhhh..
min keong give you both kiss..

i am sure sushi saw this sure tell vicky then i kena from them dyyy..
shhhhhhhhh..

i'm wondering why sushi want to cover her face lor..
got that ugly meh in this photo??
i think i know why..
maybe she dont want to see her face..
because with this pose we got a meaning one..
it is 可爱路线!!
only me, sushi, vicky and zi yang understand what this four words meant..
hahaha..


uglyyy...

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BIRTHDAY

yeahhhh..
another topic..
my birthday..
and yeahhh..
finally i'm 18 now!!!
i'm officially 18 right now!!
if going clubbing also not scare dy..
not scare they check my ic already..
but still got some places need 21 only can go in..
have to wait for another three years..
i so wish to go in casino so much..
some of my friends when their are 15 or 16 already go in..
i know irene choo!!!
you told me you 15 already went there dyyy..
i jealous you..
i dont know inside is how??
wanted to know so damn much..
once again happy birthday to myself..
NURUL CASANDRA!!

on my birthday real day..
at night went out with jiun li and sam..
three of u went DE GARDEN there for our dinner..
and jiun bought me a mango birthday cake with sam..
thank you so much!!
after dinner we went YEODLE ENGLISH for while..
cause sam want to meet friends..
and there got some ppl is i know also one..
then only i know that they're celebrating kah yann's birthday there..
yeahhh..
kah yann and my birthday is same..
both also august 20th..
then saw someone..
just say a simple hi and smile with him only..
nothing much to say..
after that back home..
reach home arounf 10.10pm like this..



another celebration..
yeah..
celebrate at jusco kbox..
at first thought many ppl come, so booked for the vip room..
but at the end..
many also ffk..
but i just dont care about it..
anyway..
i'm having fun there wit my gang..
took many photos..
and sushi gave me another birthday surprise again..
they know i didnt buy cake then they tell me lies all..
cause want to prepare the cake and let me blow the candle..
i cried again when i saw sakai taking the cake come inside..
i feel touched again..
and i want to say sorry to sakai and sushi..
cause i didnt really accompany you guys on that day..
below are the photos that took on that day..
have a look..

i never know that she will wear like this also..
when we meet each other only know..
maybe we 心灵相通??

here are the girls..
boey, xin pei and jia wen..

yeahhh..
really want to thank you for those will attend my birthday party..
thank you so so so much..
and yeahhh..
i met jia wen, boey and xin pei at jusco kbox..
she was there with boey and some other friends..
then she come my room and say hi to me..
before leave we also got took picture..
i seriously long time never meet her dy..
so damn miss her..
she is my bff too..

thanks to those who attend my party..
once again thank you so so so much..
LAM KIT YEE..
WAN KAH YAN..
CHIN YUEEN JING..
IAN CHOW..
LOH GUO JIET..
LOH GUO JUEN..
IRENE CHOO..
SAKAI YAP..
SUSHI MOO..
JOSEPH..
KIYOSHI..
ALVIN LEE..
CARYN CHOOI..
STEPHANIE CHENG..
JUSTIN YEE..
and one sakai's friend..
did i left anyone??
no right??


and below is my self loving photos..
hehehehe..
everryone will do that okay..
even boys, not only girls..
have a look..
^^

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ASTRO BATTLEGROUND

YEAHHHH..
astro battleground..
at first i thought want to reach time square at 10am in the morning..
cause the competition start at 10..
right??
but i over sleep dy..
at the end i reach time square at 3pm!!
went there with sushi..
took few photos with her..
and i saw calvin chia..
took photo with him too..
saw lots of ppl..
ans i saw few leng zai too..
omg!!!
i so so so love them wey..
all muscular and leng zai..
i just remember one with white cap..
but there got many ppl wearing white cap..
but i know sushi know who i am mentioning..
and she also saw his leng zai..
mine is white cap, but hers is white hair..
hahahaha..

yup..
hoshi chuan!!
he went there for competition too..
so i'm there to support him..
hahaha..
and other teams too..

meet him there..
we long time never meet dy..
he's busy and i'm busy..
yum cha also no time..
eddie chan!!
all the best for you in everything..
^^

yeahhhhhh..
clavin chia!!!
he very kacau one..
always kacau me..
so bad right??
he go there to support his friend..
his friend that group so nice wey the routine..
i love it so damn much..
all the best and continue weyyy..
supporting here..

i was like so happy can go live for battleground..
because every year i'm in ipoh..
even though that day nothing to do but dad and mom also wont let me go kl to watch it..
but now different dy..
i'm studying in kl..
and i can go to watch the competition for live!!!
it is fun..
and the feel is so much different from tv..
i will watch for the next round..
and also got chance to see leng zai again..
hahahaha..
shhhh..



YEAHHH..
after that sushi's bf come fetch us back..
and both of us so feel like going clubbing at night..
and at night what we wish for it came to us dyyy..
so lucky kiro is going maison on tat night..
so we join them..
maison night..
that night i back early cause got something to do..
and i miss the night so damn much..
i miss it so so so so much..
there are few ptos we took before we go in maison..
we took it in the car while we're going there..

i dont know what happened to my face..
then sushi go take this cartoon and cover my face..
lol!!

and i love this..
dont know why..
just love this picture so damn much..



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NEW SEM

YEAHHH..
uni start new sem dyy..
and now i'm having my 2nd semester..
time is like passing so fast right??
and new sem i got a new roommate..
her name is IVY..
she is a malaysian..
is better than the previous roommate..
from china..
hard to communicate..
she is friendly and fun..
i love her so much..

yeahhh..
its her..
m,y new roommate..
she dont know i steal her photo from her fb..
if she read my blog then saw this photo i dont know what respon she will give me..
hahahaha..



to be continue..