Did i make a wrong decision??

on tuesday..
i can counted as never sleep..
just nap for 1 or 2 hours..
online till midnight 3 something..
something happened..
that A's ex suddenly tag picture for him..
all those pictures are taken when they're couple..
but know they broke up..
why still want to upload as an album for him??
i know the bitch want to let everyone know that he's your bf and you're his gf..
fuck off please..
and both of you are like still coupling..
IF YOU ARE STILL LOVING HER..
WHY YOU STILL WANT TO TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME??
CALL ME BABE AND ALL??
I CANNOT ACCEPT..
IF YOU CALL ME BABE OR WHATEVER IN SWEETWORDS..
PLEASE DON'T CALL OTHERS!!
why cant you just get out from my world??
in two days time..
sure i can forget about you..
but now i got some plan..
*laughing laughing*
i know after my plan success i sure will be nothing..

exam period

today is the 4th day of spm..
4more days to go then i'll be finish my exam..
then i'll be very free for the next few weeks..
yeah..is few weeks not few months..
today i'm kinda sad..
know why??
cause jiun told me that i'm in first batch for NS@lumut..
lols..
i don't want to go ns because it will just make me become more darker and darker..
but sometimes i got the feeling that i wish to go..
cause can meet new friends and play..
but out of family and home for 3months..
for me is nothing actually..
i'm not a girl that really like to stay at home..
yeah every weekend i'll stay at home alone..
cause i feel that it is more comfortable for me..
anyway..
nothing much to tell..
yeah..
yesterday i put in my status there
''lelong lelong..single and available here''
haha..
then he got drop me comment..
omg!!
i online for so many days and just wait for him to online..
but i always cant meet him due to his laptop spoil..
maybe is cause of this reason..
but when i know he got drop me comment..
i was so happy..
on sunday night..
A phone me..
we chat for nearly half an hour..
then at the end we argue..
i did love him..
but after that day chat with him..
all my feelings towards him are gone..
one day i post ''missing you here'' to his profile..
but know what happened after that??
he DELETED my comment!!!
and said ''dont want to let his friend ejek him''
what i stupid reason??
but what i know is his ex posted ''i love you too babe''
and he never delete it..
what love is this??
i dont think that this is call love..
and keep saying me small gas and childish..
just said whtever you want..
i'm not interested in you anymore and feel fedup with you..
and we're obviously not suit each other..
you're more care about your ex's feeling then me..
how also my heart got him..
just we're still friend anyway..

oh my god!!!
while i was on the way blogging..
he suddenly find me in msn..
omg!!
i'm so so so happy wey..
so i think when he off nie i'll off..
how stupid am i..

A day i went out at night with parent's permission

yeah..went out yesterday night..
went golf club because friend b'day..
here she is..
GOH KAR YAN!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
WISH YOUR DREAM COME TRUE..
having fun there..
there's like pub but got k-room to sing..
i didn't sing much..
about one or two songs..
then play cards with jing and moon..
lols..
the card is very big..
just like our books..
A4 size..
saw many ppl there..
saw my dad's friends too..
luckily i attend this party is WITH PARENTS PERMISSION!!!
if not sure i dead!!
then i go say hello to that uncle..
but he like don't know me..
never mind..
this uncle is damn RICH wey..
this party can counted as club i think..
it is fun..
wish to club so much..
love the environment of the club..
music is nice and feel like dancing..
lols..
took a pic with jing, moon and kah yan..
feel quite sad because never take picture with b'day girl..

jing, kah yan, me and moon behind..
quite blur this pic..
when i reach home..
don't feel like want to remove my make ups..
so keep take pic..
take and take and take..
here are the pictures that i took yesterday night..

lols..
i love to do this kind of action..
it is fun and is all about cheerleading..
love cheerleading so much much much..
after that..
purposely change this belly dance clothes to take picture..
it is because i haven remove my make ups..
that's why..
lols..
purposely but thins clothes for my dad's annual dinner..
because i'll be performing belly dance..
kononya..

at the end..
online until nearly 4am only sleep..
miss it so much..
after spm sure i will go club!!
CONFIRM!!!


the end..
from : NURUL CASANDRA

3days more

ok..
now only i realize that i didn't update my blog nearly one week..
first of course because of spm coming..
second is this few days nothing special..
so just leave it..
ya..
still got 3days more spm start..
i'm damn scare and stress actually..
especially my sejarah..
i really don't know how..
i cant remember what i studied!!!
from form1 until now..
except my pmr..
i never pass my sejarah before..
oh my god!!!
i'm damn stupid wey!!!
spm is around the corner..
means for non form5..
their big holidays are coming..
they must be fun now..
planning for trip and all..
but i cant..
need to study..
but yet i still online everyday..
anyway..
good luck for all form5 in spm..
i don't want to get straight As..
but at least the result must be nice..
good luck!!!

today my neighbour absent again because she get sick..
she already absent for two days..
i'm so so so bored in school when she was not there with me..
today got 19ppl absent..
means half of the class..
i think is because of moral class that's why they don't come..
actually i don't want to go school but i have to fetch one of my dad's friend's daughter..
so i'm force to go to school..
anyway tomorrow i'm not going..
lazy lazy lazy..
stay at home sleep or study better..
when i'm in school i never study at all..
no point to go to school now for all form5 students..
waste time only..
on monday i purposely stayback to teach my junior ONG XIN ROU belly dance for her talent in MISS MGS..
and today the competition was on..
and i know that she get 3rd!!!
i'm so happy and feel proud..
haha..
because what i teach and really useful for her..
first time teach ppl dance and first time made a routine for ppl..
really proud of it..
me and wky nothing already..
so happy lo..