exam period

today is the 4th day of spm..
4more days to go then i'll be finish my exam..
then i'll be very free for the next few weeks..
yeah..is few weeks not few months..
today i'm kinda sad..
know why??
cause jiun told me that i'm in first batch for NS@lumut..
lols..
i don't want to go ns because it will just make me become more darker and darker..
but sometimes i got the feeling that i wish to go..
cause can meet new friends and play..
but out of family and home for 3months..
for me is nothing actually..
i'm not a girl that really like to stay at home..
yeah every weekend i'll stay at home alone..
cause i feel that it is more comfortable for me..
anyway..
nothing much to tell..
yeah..
yesterday i put in my status there
''lelong lelong..single and available here''
haha..
then he got drop me comment..
omg!!
i online for so many days and just wait for him to online..
but i always cant meet him due to his laptop spoil..
maybe is cause of this reason..
but when i know he got drop me comment..
i was so happy..
on sunday night..
A phone me..
we chat for nearly half an hour..
then at the end we argue..
i did love him..
but after that day chat with him..
all my feelings towards him are gone..
one day i post ''missing you here'' to his profile..
but know what happened after that??
he DELETED my comment!!!
and said ''dont want to let his friend ejek him''
what i stupid reason??
but what i know is his ex posted ''i love you too babe''
and he never delete it..
what love is this??
i dont think that this is call love..
and keep saying me small gas and childish..
just said whtever you want..
i'm not interested in you anymore and feel fedup with you..
and we're obviously not suit each other..
you're more care about your ex's feeling then me..
how also my heart got him..
just we're still friend anyway..

oh my god!!!
while i was on the way blogging..
he suddenly find me in msn..
omg!!
i'm so so so happy wey..
so i think when he off nie i'll off..
how stupid am i..