THE COMPETITION IS OVER

yeah..

the cheerleading competition is over..

everything is over..

my malaysian studies and moral studies exam also over..

but i still got 3 more papers to go..

that day i was blogging and suddenly someone off the wifi dy..

so cant blog and i lazy to continue blog there dy..

cause something is different now..

different story..

i cried yesterday..

cried for two times..

one is cause of him and another is cause of cheer..

i talk about cheer first..

i make it short and simple..

just say the main point..

yesterday was the last day for them to practice about the whole routine..

and they cant do the whole routine..

then when practice with counting they can do it..

but once with music they cant do..

and at the end vicky and one of her friend ask me go back first..

cause when i'm there they cant do..

its my problem..

i should make everything simple and easy..

and today is their competition..

their ending pose is a pyramid..

three flyers..

two girls beside and the guy flyer in the middle and hold hands..

the guy is with extension..

so it is more taller and obviously is a pyramid..

this will be nice for the ending pose and i watched there competition yesterday and nobody with this ending pose..

and just now when i was in my hostel with vicky..

she told me that the guy flyer fall down..

and yesterday when practice most of them also injured badly..

especially my best flyer..

she now dont trust the bases already..

all these is cause of me..

all is my fault..

if i never ask them to do all the stunts then it wont happened like this..

i really feel guilty of it..

and i still need to teach for mu uni cheerleading for bringing to perform with dodge ball competition..

how am i going to handle that??

for this small team i also cant handle well and so many problems appearing..

how am i going to handle the performance of the dodge ball competition?

i really dont know how..

i'm just a failure..

another thing..

about him..

cause one day before yesterday..

someone told me about him..

although it is past..

but i still very angry and care about it..

so i msg him ask bla bla bla bla bla..

then at the end he told me all the truth and yet now i'm okay already..

we back like last time..

but one thing i really dont knwo what respon should i give him when he said that to me..

he said he felt happy and also disappointed..

i asked why happy??

then he said cause i ask him about this and i angry..

damn him right??

people angry and he so happy there..

he said cause i angry means i care..

ishhhh..

who want to care about you..

PERASAN!!!

then disappointed..

cause the first msg i msg him is say dont find me anymore..

he said he disappointed cause i asked him to dont find me..

ishhh..

damn him..

people so angry there who still want you to find me..

then stupid stupid and cry cause of this..

i cried is when i start to asked him about this and what he replied to me..

and yeahhh..

we nothing now..

<3

yesterday woke up at 3am and study until this morning until the time reach for exam..

finally finish this two hardest subject for me..

malaysian studies and moral studies..

tomorrow will be english foundation..

then next friday computing studies and next next thursday positive psychology if i'm not mistaken..

and i'm going back to ipoh right after my last paper which means on next next thursday..

sushi mostly will follow my car going back..

and again..

my birthday party changed place!!!!

not celebrating at home already and also not cooking on my own already..

cause mom said on the same day office gang are going to sing k..

is like a party for them cause they just finish the most hardest time..

every year also like this..

them mom said is more easy for her and also me..

so go sing k too..

but seperate room of course..

if join together is like quite hard to communicate..

hahahaha..

cause their age and my gang's age is SO SO SO BIG DIFFERENT!!

so yeahh..

changed placed dy..

but i not sure it will be at jusco or parade..

because jusco just got one big room..

but parade got two..

maybe mom they all go jusco and we go parade..

but mom dont really like parade and if go parade i need to pay myself..

i'm poor now..

yeah..

you're going to kuching tomorrow..

do take care yourself please..

and remember what you NEED TO BRING!!!

you know what i mean..

have a safe and nice and happy trip..

god bless you and will be missing you here..

and yeah..

i miss my gang too..

all my friends in ipoh and also in kl..

i love you guys lots...